Sleepless...

It is almost 2 30 a.m. and I have college tomorrow. But still I am wide awake. Can i be termed as sane? No, most of my friends would say a big 'NO'. Perhaps, i am not myself these days. It is like i am out of my own self and watching myself go by. Ah, I don't even know what that means. I feel so helpless and confused at times. May be it has something to do with the huge amount of idle time i get these days. Moreover, one can say, idle moods, when you don't feel like doing anything. All you want to do is think, think and think about some pretty confusing unanswerable questions which are sure to leave you depressed. I seem to have got loads of such questions which go round and round and round my mind and never lets me stay in peace. Like a ping pong ball, it keeps bouncing off, never resting.

At loss of words....

Its not every day that i find myself unable to speak even a word while in company of people. Considering how talkative i am, i know its rare, very rare indeed. But, it was THE DAY. I was dumbstruck. The reason??? I was in company of one of my passed out seniors, awestruck by his words.
He sounded like a walking encyclopedia. Talk about anything, he had something to say and what he said was not some random crap but always something valid. I have met people like him before. They tend to act like a big know-it-all. But what i have not seen is the surreal combination of intelligence, simplicity and humbleness. He was a perfect mix of all the three. One hour of talk with him felt like i have been into a google search or something. Such was his prowess. But still, he had his innocence intact. His guileless self amazed me. Such a gem. A true genius.
With all my heart, i say this, hats off to you, Srinath anna. You are really great and sure to go a long way in life. I am really proud to have known a person like you. Good luck :) :) :)

The August 15th....

Its been a while since i blogged. Not that i am busy, its just that nothing seems to interest these days. Okay, so lets get to something serious.
August 15th. The date rings a bell in every Indian citizen. Yes, the independence day. The day, when one can see people going around having the flag pinned on their dresses, the day when you see our tricolor flags hung everywhere. On this day, people try to show their patriotism and love towards our country in every way possible.
But the real question remains: Is it enough to exhibit patriotism on one single day??? Is it okay to be an ignorant citizen the rest 364 days???
Well, wondering why i am asking such serious questions all of a sudden??? Well, my friend had a project to do on patriotism and these things came up.
Patriotism is not paying respects to the country for just one day. It is about doing something for the country every single day. The definition of patriotism has changed over years. Back in 1947, fighting for the country was patriotism. But now, after 63 years of independence, it is not the same. Just saluting the flag on independence day doesn't count as patriotism anymore. It is lot more than that. Voicing your opinion about something that is spoiling the society, paying your taxes regularly, and small things like that count as patriotism.
So on this 64th independence day, wake up. Do something really for our country. Continue to do something small for our country every single day.
Happy Independence Day!!! :) :) :)








P.S.: For more, read http://india.targetgenx.com/2007/10/28/is-our-patriotism-dying-out-rather-is-it-alive/

A post on friendship day

I had meant to blog so much today, but did not find time. Life is full of surprises. I got many shocks and sweet surprises. One sweet surprise was an old friend with whom i had lost contact for few months. Another surprise was another friend who pinged me for the first time on his own. As for shocks, i seem to get loads of them. I learnt how blind i am, not seeing the obvious. I seem to be the last to know of some things of very obvious nature.

All that was yesterday. Today is a fresh day, friendship day. A wonderful day dedicated to friends. Friends, the word itself brings smile to my face. They are the bestest things that happen to us.

A friend of mine said it must be "I'm still your friend day". I found this very appealing as it is this day friends who had a fall out or lost contact, take time to call up and talk. Whether it is "friendship day" or "i'm still your friend day", it still remains a special day meant for special people in this world.

To all my wonderful friends out there, love you all a lot :) :) :)

A magical evening !!!

How can a gloomy day turn to a most cherished evening of your life? Once again, the answer is friends:):):) Practical persons do not believe in fairy tales and i am a practical girl. But, the evening turned out to be really magical for me!!! It was like ' you are somewhere in a corner, with darkness slowly creeping in n suddenly, boom!!! there is light, which grows brighter n brighter n brighter until it fills up your entire skies'. This is how i felt today. From the deep gutters of my mind, i was escalated to the top of the world, all thanks to my wonderful friends :) :) :)

I was in SQC, breaking my head over how i am supposed to conduct an event on thursday when only the posters have been ready by tuesday. Then comes my friend who tells me, we have to meet one professor at the health centre n so i pack up and start towards the health centre n when we near the gallery gate, she says: "come on, lets go to the gallery". Only then i realise it. They were going to cut a cake for my birthday which had gone by during the summer hols.
WOW, i never gave it much thought after coming to college and so this was a wonderful surprise. Another friend also celebrates her birthday in the hols and it is customary that we both cut cakes together. So there it was, two beautiful square cakes with our names n candles on it, one in white n other one in pink. A total of 18 of them had come n we all made a pretty sight together :):)

Soon the birthday wishes were made and the candles were blown. The cakes were cut and gobbled while the icing on the cake found its place in my face and the rest of the friends' faces. Now comes the best part, one of the my adorable friends gave me an self made card with all eighteen's thumb impressions n some more from some special people. It was a really sweet gesture that had tears to my eyes which i succeeded in banking up to some extent.


But the surprise for the day was not over yet. My friends gifted me with Eric Segal's Love Story. I couldn't control anymore and there were tears in my eyes. It got the most unusual reaction. It was almost like yipppeee, she cried :) :) :) I was ssssoooo hhhhaaapppyyyyy at that moment :) :) :) :) :) We clicked away as many pics as possible. Soon we departed and i was back in my hostel room recalling the moments with the pictures. I also took some good pictures of the gifts i got this birthday. My nineteenth birthday would be the most memorable one. And this magical evening would be long remembered.P.S: This post is dedicated to all my friends in college who have made the world look beautiful and magical just for me. Love you all :) :) :) You are the best :) :) :)

To my dearest Pavithra.......

Its been a year now. Its been a year since she left us. A day of complete shock n despair.
I was with her in the morning, in our college canteen fighting for a bite of the candy she was having.... n then in the evening, i get a call.... that she's dead.... i couldn't believe it at all... i remember walking all the way from IRS to hostel feeling numb... If only she had not gone out on that particular day... if only they hadn't swapped places in the car... if only, if only, if only.... the list continues... but it happened... the accident... the death... and a year has gone by with out her... but not a day without remembering her...
Once in a while you meet somebody new whom, it seems, you've know from the start. You feel, you've found someone special to trust and confide in, someone with whom you can talk heart-to-hear. You share a strange closeness and a feeling that you know, will never end. Once in a while, you meet somebody new, who becomes such a wonderful friend. She was one such wonderful friend. I miss her everyday. We had planned many things to do together. All were left undone. Miss you a lot, pavith!!!
Here are the David Harkins' lines that gave me comfort:
You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

Empty thoughts after a terse day

I am confused, bothered n feeling as empty as a hollow bin. Then, what the hell am i doing here??? I am not sure. One thing my mind has continually failed to register is the fact that people change. Though being told many times, it just fails to input the the idea. Reason??? The same answer again. I am not sure. But I am sure of one thing: if you expect a person to remain the same, you are going to be hurt. So never expect anything from anyone. Expectations hurt.

One more thing i am sure of, right now is, never try to think in others' place. I am not sure if i nailed it down right. Let me explain. Its like this: you have a thought, you are not sure of it, so you put yourself in others' place n try to assume how they would think. Trust me, such tries would lead to nothing but unwanted worries. So never think too much.

The last thought for the day: After you rant about your worries to your friend, if you thank them for hearing you out n if you go on n tell good things you really mean about them, they would dismiss you as just being nice n making it up to please them. So never tell good things about a person to the person himself.

Well, thats the end of it. This looks like the most terrible post i have written. But then, i wanted to write something, anything at all n hence the above result.