To my dearest Pavithra.......

Its been a year now. Its been a year since she left us. A day of complete shock n despair.
I was with her in the morning, in our college canteen fighting for a bite of the candy she was having.... n then in the evening, i get a call.... that she's dead.... i couldn't believe it at all... i remember walking all the way from IRS to hostel feeling numb... If only she had not gone out on that particular day... if only they hadn't swapped places in the car... if only, if only, if only.... the list continues... but it happened... the accident... the death... and a year has gone by with out her... but not a day without remembering her...
Once in a while you meet somebody new whom, it seems, you've know from the start. You feel, you've found someone special to trust and confide in, someone with whom you can talk heart-to-hear. You share a strange closeness and a feeling that you know, will never end. Once in a while, you meet somebody new, who becomes such a wonderful friend. She was one such wonderful friend. I miss her everyday. We had planned many things to do together. All were left undone. Miss you a lot, pavith!!!
Here are the David Harkins' lines that gave me comfort:
You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.