Sunday, July 18, 2010

To my dearest Pavithra.......

Its been a year now. Its been a year since she left us. A day of complete shock n despair.
I was with her in the morning, in our college canteen fighting for a bite of the candy she was having.... n then in the evening, i get a call.... that she's dead.... i couldn't believe it at all... i remember walking all the way from IRS to hostel feeling numb... If only she had not gone out on that particular day... if only they hadn't swapped places in the car... if only, if only, if only.... the list continues... but it happened... the accident... the death... and a year has gone by with out her... but not a day without remembering her...
Once in a while you meet somebody new whom, it seems, you've know from the start. You feel, you've found someone special to trust and confide in, someone with whom you can talk heart-to-hear. You share a strange closeness and a feeling that you know, will never end. Once in a while, you meet somebody new, who becomes such a wonderful friend. She was one such wonderful friend. I miss her everyday. We had planned many things to do together. All were left undone. Miss you a lot, pavith!!!
Here are the David Harkins' lines that gave me comfort:
You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.


  1. I miss her sooo much di... I was never her closest friend... but she was my most favorite architect... She even promised to be the architect of my house one day... I jus wish I had known her much earlier.. and tat she didnt hav to leave us all jus wen i began to get close to her... wish she were here.. love you Pavi...

  2. July18,2009..the most tragic day in my life till now.. even aft going to my relative's place tat mrng..I wished i cud've said a bye to her before cmng there...but i dint as it was too early n she was sleepin...but i never expected she'll tell us all a good bye n leave this world...i dint believe the news when my frnd said...i asked her not to believe n kept on prayin it shud not be so! I cud'nt control my tears when i heard frm my frnd tat pavith told so.."How can Subha go there without even telling me a gonna fight with her when she comes back"..she was my first best frnd in coll..i never thought i wud get along with her..the day one i saw her..but then..i resided in her room almost all time...can never forget the wonderful times spent in IGH S-12 wit pavith n gayu...v three...the best trio! sooo many silly fights, midnight chats, soo much fun n laughter, all-time teasing each other, sooo much care to wipe each others' tears...wish those times are back!!! My first b'day celebrated in coll... just 4days aft the day v joined...was made remarkable by her...but the next yr...aft v became sooo close..she was not wit me...though tat day was one of my happiest..I missed her badly... Time flies so fast...can never imagine how life in this coll passed a yr without her...not a single day pass by without her many things around me remind me of her...her memories are still her! I believe she is ever around us...Miss u a lot Pavithra...:(:(