Turning over a new leaf...

Its been days since I put up a decent post. I seem to have had forgotten how to write at all. Yeah, I never thought it would come to this. Things have not gone the way I thought they would. Anyways, here I am turning over a new leaf.

So, with just one more year of college to go, I have already started feeling the apprehensions. But then, instead of worrying, it is always better to enjoy the moment. This semester, a lot of things happened. Many beautiful memories formed: Kurukshetra, Techofes, QQuest, Geohorizon, Sangarsh, IIT Bombay, farewell party, freshers party, UGC Project reviews and a lot more.

I have DAAD internship to Germany to look forward to. Now, this internship is one example of how things can turn out to be. Even, in the application stage, it had problems. One full day of scoldings from the HOD just to get sign in the No Objection Certificate. I thought this has to be the greatest trail. But I was wrong. The problems were yet to begin. Somehow, I got selected. First, I changed the internship dates to May and June. By the time it got confirmed, a new problem cropped up. The election commission went on to announce the dates of the general elections as April 13. After days of keeping the fingers crossed, finally the exam dates came out and miraculously, they seemed okay. I thought that's it. No more problems. But as usual, I was wrong again. Now, there are chances that a particular exam might be kept on the day I am supposed to board the flight to Germany. So, as in my friend's words, is there going to be another twist in the tale??? Don't know.

In the past few days, I have learnt a lot of things which I will never forget again in my life. Things always do not turn out to be as you expect no matter how sure they look at the moment. Surprises always spring up. Disappointments always happen. I read this somewhere: "When you do not get what you want, do not despair. May be, there is something better you deserve." May be, this is true. But all things said and done, it is hard to get over it.

I worked very hard for two things this semester which was almost like my dream right from my first year. But, both ended as a dream, never turned to reality. So, am I disappointed? Yes, I am. But then again the lines I quoted above got to me. May be, this is a chance for me to try out new ventures, a chance to get out of the routine. I intend to.

Here is a poem I came across that seemed so appropriate:

TURN OVER A NEW LEAF

Life would be static, dull and boring without seasons;
So seasons come for varied and outstanding reasons:
The trees at appointed time would shed their leaves
And men would dump their anoraks for shirtsleeves.

The clouds are burdened and blighted now is the sun
Just as the moon slips into her convent and soberly becomes a nun;
Childhood gallops gaily into youth and its thrills
But youth dreads adulthood as they say its end chills.

Dread it or not - an ever open book remains age;
And everyone each year must read that brand new page.

Yes, life's an exciting book which we must turn over a new leaf -
Changes dog our every step every blessed day we live;
But like lizards we must keep sloughing off our old skins,
Aligning ourselves with the ever changing tale that life spins.

P.S.: This is a post dedicated to those who helped, advised and inspired me turn a new leaf over :)

BLEED BLUE!!!

Mere words will never be enough to describe the sensational moment, the roar that went up in the TV Hall as Dhoni lifted the ball for THE INCREDIBLE SIX!!! All I could hear for the next ten minutes was the constant ringing in my ears due to the high decibel level in the TV Hall. There were hugs, cheers, howls, jumps and yeah, even tears, happy ones in some faces.

After 28 years of waiting, India has finally regained the cricket world cup. In a country where cricket is more than a game, more of a religion, this would be one single moment etched in the memories for ever.

Kudos to MS Dhoni fo his able captainship and salutes to the God of cricket, Sachin Tendulkar for he had finally added the only missing feather to his cap.

Team India rocks \m/

YAY, BLEED BLUE :)

All that begins unwell....

Yeah, i believe it now. When you are surrounded by hoards of sadness, you can be sure that happiness is just around the corner. God gives us problems and sadness so that the happiness when it comes, is more sweeter and more satisfying. My day today, is a perfect example for this.
The day started badly. I got feeling awful, still fretful of what had transpired the night before. I wanted to curse the day I was first made the leader, the day I was first asked to hold some responsibility. Recently, a lot, a real lot of problems seemed to occur out of the responsibilities I hold and I just wanted to throw it all away. It just drained me off emotionally and all I could do at the end of the day was to flop down the bed and fall asleep, away from all the thoughts. I just wished I could run away somewhere.
Nothing happened the way I wanted it to happen. Walls kept springing up in whatever I tried doing. I was foul minded the whole day, ready to snap at anyone who dared to cross my path. I was hardly constraining my self. To add to my bad mood, my roommate went on talking in cell phone. The vices of the cell phones are too great to be explained in this post. I will save it for sometime later. So my roommates were not helping. The day wore off with me going around all sulky and haughty.
Then a friend texted me. I know, I shouldn't be putting this up as it is a breach of privacy. But still, its been long since I really wanted to blog so as to capture the essence of the moment to posterity. Wow, that was so cliched. Anyways, this friend of mine is outright innocent and was very bothered about something the others would have found mundane and commonplace. I was having a bad day. Someone else comes to me complaining. I should have felt worse. But the opposite happened. Seeing my friend fret so guileless just relaxed me and by the time i finished convincing that it was really nothing to worry about, I was smiling, I mean, really smiling.
There was no hint of my foul mood or the snappy one. The innocence just went out to my heart. I am sure I will never ever do anything to hurt such a noble heart. Good begets good, they say. So ended my day which started out as a bad one but ended with a smile :)



Note: This post is dedicated to my innocent, guileless friend who unwittingly brightened the end of my day.

Adieu 2010!!!

A year has gone past and here is a post dedicated to 2010 - A year of mixed bags. Here is a memoir of the year 2010, dedicated to all the people who came into my life this year and left their footprints behind, to be cherished as beautiful memories.

Adieu 2010!!!

The Big Black Box

Its been a long while since i blogged. I have been suffering from what bloggers generally call, a writer's block. I spent nights staring at the screen, wanting to write but facing a big black box in my mind. It felt like, the box comes right in front of everything else, blocking out every other thought that would have been blogged otherwise.
There were several things i wanted to blog but could not because of this so-called writer's block. I am finally here, making an attempt to move that big block out there.
Here is one thing that I have been dying to blog but resisted the urge because i was quite sure that i would, sometime in future, will look at it and repent that I ever wrote them. But still, the devil in me succeeded. Here it is. The ill-fated Ooty Winter Survey Camp.
Everything that begins well ends well. A famous maxim. But let me tell you. It is an utter lie. I am more a believer of Murphy's Law. If everything seems right, then something is about to go wrong. Now, that is a line. A perfectly true one. Our trip to Ooty began well. One cannot say a perfect start, but yes, to an extent, it began well. It can be said spotless if the fact that TTR shouted at us for all the havoc we were creating in the train can be forgotten. The toy train journey was simply wonderful. Breathtaking views of the Nilgiri Valley were a feast to our eyes.
The first two days went very well. Personally, it was great. I had an exclusive tour of the entire hills in the name of Site Selection for Surveying. The next two days went in surveying Thalakunda, Our Surveying Site. It was all serious work. Okay, not so serious. Well, basically very little work and a lot of fun. So far so good.
As i said, it looked too good to be true. And right I was. The happy event of cake cutting on the ill fated 4th of December turned out to be a messy one creating cracks, fissures, inside the class. Words were said and feelings were hurt. The unwanted entry and words of some special people resulted in further chaos and hurt. (The way i feel about these special people would require another big blog. Hence, i am omitting the part here) I once read somewhere "No one has the power to hurt unless the word they say mean a lot". I was a real fool to have let them hurt me. I could not help it. I was hurt.
Once again, it was my dear friends that I turned to. My friends were the ones who stood up for me during the fateful night and i realised how much i love my friends. It feels good when someone stands up for you even when its not the right moment to do so. The only good thing that happened that day was my discovery of some really good friends who will be there for me always. The ill fated night ended with one of the girls hospitalised because of wheezing and cold.
Yes, the Cold. I forgot to mention the biting cold there. I was beneath layers of clothing and could still feel the cold bite into my skin. My heart yearned for a warm bed. But still, we had fun in the cold. The Hot tea in the roadside tea shop and the the Hot Bajjis from another roadside vendor were a real treat. We stayed at YWCA. The reception, warm and welcoming, was another place where we had fun watching the TV. Also the Thendral and Tandoor Mahal Restaurants deserve a special mention as we stuffed ourselves with the food there.
After the ill fated night, things went on as before. But now, the crack had widened. I spent all of my time with my friends while the rest of the class were in a world of their own. All I could remember of the subsequent days are the times we were together.
The dodabetta and the botanical garden were superb. The sights were quite refreshing, quite different from the concrete views of the Chennai city. We also had a camp fire. It was okay. But our personal camp fire (after the rest of the class had left) and the midnight noodles were great, memories to be remembered always.
The day of return arrived and we left Ooty, more divided than we came. May be its jinxed. The survey camp always widens the crack. I left wiser and clearer on people's thoughts. I finally reached home at midnight and fell into my beloved warm welcoming bed. My search and yearn for a warm bed ended.

Late night grumbles...

Its been a while since i blogged. Something seems to have gotten inside me these days. I have become hyperactive these days. My emotions are on a roll. I laugh easily and i get upset so easily. The best thing is I do not seem to remember why i am upset after sometime. I seem to forget the reason why i got upset in the first place. Sounds crazy, isn't it?
If someone comes up to me and asks "what is running through your mind right now?", I could give him ten different answers. Yes, ten different things seem to run through it.
First of all, there is my motivation letter to write for DAAD WISE internship. I am supposed to be writing that down now, but I did not have enough motivation to write the motivation letter. Ah, what a paradox!
Then, there is this finals of heptathlon which i am supposed to conduct. I am supposed to be showing the final format of the finals tmrw. Yet again, I did not want to do it.
Then, there is the assessments coming up. Though i have never cared a dime about them in college, still it is tiring to think about them .
Then there is this and there is that. The list of things to do and think goes on... I wish I could be in two places at once or atleast had a time turner like in Harry Potter.
Inspite of all the activities around me, I still feel bored. Bored beyond words. It all looks the same. Nothing new to interest. Nothing new to inspire. That is the reason i have been away from blogging for days now. May be one of these days, i will snap out of it.
Thats all for now. Off i go to bed, after yet another dull boring day.

A day full of fun and frolic :) :) :)

Its been long since I blogged. I had been too lazy to write something and post it. But today, it felt special and so i am here to blog it.
The day began like any other day, me staying up late until early morning 4 reading a book and then getting up late and ended up going late to class too. It was Agni today and so classes got suspended after 10.
We had already booked tickets for Endhiran and so we were off to the theatre soon. Chennai buses proved its fickle nature as usual and we ended up going to Abirami Mall in Auto. We entered the theatre on dot for the film somehow.
About Endhiran, there is only one word to describe the movie-"incredulicious". Yeah, totally awesome. When lights came on during the interval, i couldn't see a single face in the crowd who was not wearing a smile. I was apprehensive of the hype given for the film. But after watching it, i realized the film was totally worth it.
So went the afternoon and evening and then came the night, there was Agni night events to look forward to. One of my good friends' team performed a variety show. Well, my throat went sore and my voice was hoarse by the end of their performance.
I thought the day was done but no, there was still more in store. One of my passed out seniors from SQC came and provided the perfect ending for the perfect day. There were nearly 10 of us and we all went to the stalls at the expense of that senior. It was the best two hours I have had recently. While i had a splitting headache before, it was replaced by laughter now. We all laughed so much and i loved every moment of it.
Further night events were totally forgotten in the wake of the fun we were having at the stalls. Soon it was time for us to return to hostel. Thus ended my day filled with fun and frolic.