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Something about him made her heart yearn for his company. Was it his sarcasm ? Or his witty rebuttal to her every word ? She was not sure. But yes, she was sure of one thing. She wanted to become his friend. She was used to being told that she was perfect. But he pointed out the flaws. When others sang praises, he criticized. Perhaps, it was the darkness around him that attracted her. She did not realize that darkness is overpowering. She did not know it will consume her. It will suck out the light from her. 

[6/365] A Recap from College days - Lessons Learnt

Below is something I wrote when I was in college. The fact that things have not changed much and I need a reminder of these things again is just pathetic.

Lessons Learnt 


I am exhausted, thinking of the same thing over and over again. How can one be so fickle? How can one be so manipulative? It is definitely beyond my understandings.

While I spent my time thinking of the happenings again and again, I realized something. When it comes to arguments, people generally do not see logic. Leave alone the logic, even the common sense abandons. All that is left is the rage to win the argument at any cost.

As one of my friends advised, the only way to deal with such arguments is to laugh it off. Few years down the lane, it would seem trivial. Though I do not want to get into the happenings (yes, that is how I like to call it), here are the few valuable lessons I learnt.


# Lesson 1

Though the world has moved on, there are still guys who feel their inherent dominant genes and no matter what, they will always feel so. A thing out of girl’s mouth carries as much value as the 25 paise coins does these days. As one of my friend’s facebook update states, by evolution, guys have been dominant and it would take some time for them to get out of it and until then women have to bear with their attitudes.

# Lesson 2

People can go to any level to get the work done. When someone wanted work to be done, they can come and smile and act like your best friend. But the facade will last only until the work gets over. It will be your mistake if you had given the person a second chance. You cannot straighten a dog’s tail nor can you bend the sunlight. It is one thing to get cheated by the facade and entirely another thing to know the facade and still go with it because all you want to do is to help in the work knowing full well that the person concerned is incapable of getting the work done. Enjoy the feeling! :)

# Lesson 3

Empathy is a bad emotion to feel. While people might call you compassionate, you will always remain an unwanted involvement to the problem. So learn not to empathize anymore.

# Lesson 4

Feminism is a good thing. A girl outspoken will be called names but a guy outspoken will be idolized. I did not see the need for feminism before, but now, I am all for it.

# Lesson 5

No matter what, everyone have an ego wall built around them. Some are scalable, some are unconquerable. Some are weak while some are iron gates. Things that might seem harmless to you might hurt someone else’s ego. So be careful when you deal with others.

# Lesson 6

Words. They have the power to create magic and also the power to create hell. So be careful with what you say. Watch it!!!

# Lesson 7 **The best lesson ever**

Silence is golden. Period. No more comments.

Note : People who read it do not get offended. This is in reference to the few. I agree, the rest are wonderful.

[5/365] Mehendi Lessons

I learnt an important lesson today. Expectations are the root cause for all misery and messed up things. Expectations hinder imaginations, efforts and everything.

So here is the series of events that lead to this realization. I am quite decent in mehendi designs. One of my flatmates' mom was visiting us and she has a thing for my mehendi designs. In fact, she was one of the few persons who have been brave enough to give their palms to me to experiment on. She wanted me to do mehendi design on her palms again this time. So I was super careful, went through a lot of designs, zeroed in on one and spend about an hour doing it. It came out well. There were some more left in the cone and so I decided to do something on my hand. I absolutely went crazy and tried out things on my hand and at the end of ten minutes, the one I did for myself turned out to be more beautiful than the other one.

It was then I realised that I was ready to try out different things since it concerned only me and did not involve others and so there were no expectations involved. This helped me do things better. Expectations serve as a mental block in most of the cases. I am now working towards a new goal of turning expectations from others into a positive factor rather than a weigh-down factor.

Suggestions are welcome !

[4/365] Books

So true!

I went on a ordering binge on Flipkart. They just got delivered and so am all set for the weekend !

Excited :)

[3/365] On being good and honest

Yesterday, it was just a question. But based on what is happening around me, I am sure of it now. It is not worth to be all good and honest. The world has almost become like 'the five monkeys in the box' experiment. In the beginning, it was planned. But as time went on, it became the norm. Now, no one wants frank opinion. Sugar-coated words please people. Words, in its most raw form is abhorred. I can clearly see manipulation working like magic around me. Its very tempting to follow the suit. It will solve many of my problems. Instead being accused of doing things that did not happen, it will be better to get blamed for my own actions. At the very least, I will have the satisfaction of having done it. I am trying very hard not to succumb to this temptation. I had pledged myself when I joined corporate that I will not become one among the many monkeys. I will not let it change my values and principles. People warned me but I was confident. Now, my stance seems to be faltering. Lets see how long I can hold out. 

[2/365] On Christmas Eve

Merry Christmas ! Christmas have always been associated joy. For me, the word Christmas triggers my mind to conjure the ever smiling face of 'Santa' with white beard. Seeing endless Christmas movies on lifetime channel during my brief US visit did not help the case either. I am now a believer in Christmas miracles and yes, in Santa too :) Christmas is all about the joy of giving. I have always been a believer in small acts of kindness. What goes around comes around.

But recently, my faith in good will has been on a trial stand. When you see darkness all around, it is difficult to believe in light. Is it really worth to be honest and good in this big bad world ? My mind seems to be asking this a lot these days. A world where your most innocent words get dissected on various levels and get twisted around to arrive at most ridiculous conclusions, how much long can one hold out ? I am not sure. But all I hope is I do not succumb to the temptation of following the norms, becoming one among the many. 

[1/365] Being Pampered...

There is nothing like being home and pampered after experiencing cold US winter for a month. People say winter in California is the warmest. But having lived in Chennai for six years now, it is the coldest that I have been and I could not wait to get back. Maybe, naturally I am warm-hearted ( I know, some would disagree).  If anyone asks me the high point of my recent US trip, I would call out my return journey as being the one. Having been busy doing last minute shopping for two days, I had barely 4 hours of sleep during my last two days. I was so sleepy that I missed the takeoff at SFO. But what made the return flight awesome was the feeling when you are woken up with food served in front of you, which you can have and go right back to sleep. Yay, it was the best 15 hours I have had in the recent days.

P.S.: Home reminded me of so many things I used to be and now not. Everyone needs a nest to fly to, to hide from the big bad world and I can say, my nest is the safest :)